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Bold what you have read, italicize those you started but couldn’t finish, and strike through what you couldn’t stand. Add an asterisk* to those you’ve read more than once. Underline those on your to-read list. ? for can’t remember if I ever tried to read it or not. I’m making it colorful.  \o/

Carrie
‘Salem’s Lot
Shining, The
Rage
Night Shift
Long Walk, The?
Dead Zone, The
Firestarter
Roadwork
Cujo
Running Man, The
Thinner
Different Seasons
Pet Sematary
Christine
Talisman, The*
Cycle of the Werewolf
Skeleton Crew
Bachman Books, The
IT
Eyes of the Dragon, The
Misery
Tommyknockers, The
Dark Half, The
Stand: The Complete & Uncut Edition, The
Four Past Midnight?
Needful Things
Gerald’s Game
Dolores Claiborne
Nightmares & Dreamscapes
Insomnia
Rose Madder
Desperation
Regulators, The
Bag of Bones
Hearts in Atlantis
Girl Who Loved Tom Gordon, The
Green Mile: The Complete Serial Novel, The
Plant: Zenith Rising, The
Dreamcatcher
Black House
Everything’s Eventual
From A Buick 8
Dark Tower: Wolves of the Calla, The
Dark Tower: The Drawing of the Three, The
Dark Tower: The Gunslinger, The*
Dark Tower: The Waste Lands, The*
Dark Tower: Wizard and Glass, The
Dark Tower, The
Dark Tower: Song of Susannah, The
Colorado Kid, The
Cell
Lisey’s Story
Blaze
Duma Key
Just After Sunset
Stephen King Goes to the Movies
Under the Dome
Full Dark, No Stars
11/22/63

I was looking around blogher.com and searched for ‘lesbian’ in the Life Blogs section.  The first one I found that wasn’t a mom (I really get sick of mommy blogs) I clicked on.  Of course she’s stopped blogging there and didn’t give a link to her new blog.. but I started reading anyway.  And I saw this Books post and I thought I’d do it knowing I haven’t read shit lol.

Finding The Magic

Bold what you have read, italicize those you started but couldn’t finish, and strike through what you couldn’t stand. Add an asterisk* to those you’ve read more than once. Underline those on your to-read list. ? for can’t remember if I ever tried to read it or not.

Jonathan Strange & Mr Norrell
Anna Karenina
Crime and Punishment
Catch-22
One Hundred Years of Solitude
Wuthering Heights
The Silmarillion
Life of Pi: a novel
The Name of the Rose
Don Quixote
Moby Dick
Ulysses?
The Odyssey?
Pride and Prejudice
Jane Eyre
A Tale of Two Cities
The Brothers Karamazov
Guns, Germs, and Steel: the fates of human societies
War and Peace
Vanity Fair
The Time Traveler’s Wife
The Iliad?
Emma
The Blind Assassin
The Kite Runner
Mrs. Dalloway
Great Expectations
Reading Lolita in Tehran: a Memoir in Books
Memoirs of a Geisha
Middlesex
Quicksilver
Wicked: the life and times of the wicked witch of the West
The Canterbury Tales
The Historian: A Novel
A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man
Love in the Time of Cholera
Brave New World
Foucault’s Pendulum
Middlemarch
Frankenstein
The Count of Monte Cristo
Dracula
A Clockwork Orange
Anansi Boys
The Once and Future King
The Grapes of Wrath
The Poisonwood Bible: A Novel
1984
Angels & Demons
The Inferno
The Satanic Verses
Sense and Sensibility
The Picture of Dorian Gray
Mansfield Park
One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest
To the Lighthouse
Tess of the D’Urbervilles
Oliver Twist
Gulliver’s Travels
Les Misérables
The Corrections
The Amazing adventures of Kavalier and Clay
The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time
Dune
The Prince
The Sound and the Fury
Angela’s Ashes: A Memoir
The God of Small Things
A People’s History of the United States : 1492-present
Cryptonomicon
Neverwhere
A Confederacy of Dunces
A Short History of Nearly Everything
Dubliners
The Unbearable Lightness of Being
Beloved
Slaughterhouse-Five
The Scarlet Letter
Eats, Shoots & Leaves
The Mists of Avalon
Oryx and Crake: a novel
Collapse : How Societies Choose to Fail or Succeed
Cloud Atlas
The Confusion
Lolita
Persuasion
Northanger Abbey
The Catcher in the Rye
On the Road
The Hunchback of Notre Dame
Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance : an Inquiry into Values
The Aeneid
Watership Down
Gravity’s Rainbow
The Hobbit
White Teeth
Treasure Island
David Copperfield
The Three Musketeers
The Fountainhead
Atlas Shrugged
Freakonomics: a Rogue Economist Explores the Hidden Side of Everything

That was easy.  I should do it for Stephen King, I might have more highlighted lol.

The Question: Are online relationships not relationships?

When I was first dipping my toes into Lake Lesbian I ended up starting out my escapades online. Its a very long and convoluted story that I can get into some other day, but lets just say I was supa-playa. As far as offline dating and my lesbian experiences I have had little experience in relationships with women, or men for that matter. In total, I’ve probably had nine relationships, and of that half I wouldn’t even consider a relationship, it’s more like dating. It wasn’t going to ever go anywhere, sorry bish. So on total ‘offline’ relationships, with men and women, I could count on one hand.  And those range in time from less than a month to almost 10 years.   ‘Online’ relationships on the other hand I could never count or remember all the women I’ve dated.  That’s not even trying to think up the few guys thrown in there for good measure.

When I talk about an online relationship, I am not talking about dating sites and texting/emailing then meeting.  I am talking about being in a chat room or an online game making friends and building a relationship with a person through a computer screen.

My point in all this, is I’ve been told I have no relationship experience (see Relationships part 2), so I ask, do you consider online relationships to be real?  Do you not learn from them? Do you not feel with them?  Do they not effect your everyday life?

I am pretty sure that in the 5 years or so that I was only dating online I learned an awful lot from those relationships.  I learned about relationships and about women and people and I learned a hell of a lot about myself.  Like, oh yah, I’m a lesbian!

I also think that online relationships tend to happen at a faster pace than an offline relationship.  I think you are put in a position when talking online that you talk to the person for a longer time (6 -7 hours instead of 2 hour date) and you talk more openly and freely because of a willingness to open up to a computer screen.  So while you may only be in a relationship with someone for a month or so with someone it is more like being in a relationship with them for 3 months. 

Am I wrong?

About an hour ago the guy that sits next to me started scratching his crotch for like 10 minutes straight. Ew. He then stuck his headphones on and went back to work, I guess, and started snoring. That’s ended he’s now rubbing his hands over his arms scratching at the super bear-like hair that covers them. I’m going to puke soon, srsly.

This site is great, I want everything. Its a punk/goth clothing website. She sells of ebay normally, but has opened a website to get some of her stuff from. There are just great shoes! I want these:

Lolita Punk gothic platform kei shoes from Hammerhiroko.com

The Question: Does the length of a relationship make it more meaningful, or mean you have more experience?

This is a relatively straightforward question. If the relationship is short, a month, two months, 6 months, is it less meaningful than something that is a year, two years, 10 years? Does that mean a short relationship has less bearing on your experience in a relationship? Or maybe if you have only had a couple long relationships and not much else, does that mean you have no experience? Do people that are serial short term relationship types have more relationship experience because they may be exposed to more people and more different types of people and different types of relationships than someone who has been in just a few long term relationships and not much else?

I don’t think it really matters honestly. I think you are going to be who you are and learn from people and experiences short or long. I think someone who has only long term relationships may end up being more wary of throwing themselves into a serious relationship than someone who has been through several short ones. I think that those who have been in short ones may think they understand how to deal with a certain type of person based on past experiences, but no one is the same and I don’t think you can always do or say things you might with one person and expect that same reaction from another person.

Z had asked me for an update on my garden and to see pics. So I’ve got a few pics, taken with my cell phone camera. They are pretty sucky.. but lets see what we can find.

Peas

A Pod!

Purple Tomatillo & Golden Cherry Tomato

Cilantro

The Weeds :/ Growing better than anything else.

The sleepier I feel, the yummier my coffee tastes in the morning. Just me?

I don’t know if this is really an oddity that happens in lesbian or gay relationships, or if its just my relationship. Which, I’m weird, it could be just me. For a couple months now E has been staying at our friend B’s house during the week and at home on the weekends. B has just gotten a new job, has a new place, not a hell of a lot of furniture.. a genuine bachelorette pad. She has a bed and a couch, although the couch is, from the sounds of it, actually a loveseat. So, E & B share a bed while she’s there.

The thought of E & B hooking up is like the thought of a donkey and an owl hooking up. Just not going to happen and if it did it’d end ugly. This Friday we are staying at B’s house, the 3 of us. I’ve been told, since we don’t want to kick her out of her own bed, the sleeping arrangements will be me & B in the bed, E on the couch. I feel a little hinky about this. Hinky! Not Kinky! Not because I have any fear of anything happening, just.. does it not seem weird that I’m sharing a bed with a friend while my wife sleeps on the couch?

Does this happen in other les/gay relationships? Not so much the honey, i’m sharing a bed with my friend while you sleep on the couch. But more friends of same sex sharing beds. Does it happen in straight relationships? I think friends of same sex yes, friends of opposite sex not so much. It seems very taboo, to me, for people of opposite sex to share, but not so much of same sex. Just me?

I found a website 15dollarstore.com It has some cute stuff. Everything is 15$ I found a couple watches I want to get E. And I been contemplating it. I am worried tho, really? 15$? Too good to be true? The site says no refunds or exchanges, that freaks me out a bit. I may try and get one or two things next time I get paid and test it out see if it’s really any good. I’ll report back.